Trust.

Why is it so hard to convince someone to trust you? Why is it so hard to convince yourself to trust that person?

Everyone has some degree and level of trust issues. And each person allows their trust issues to color the way they see the world around them, not just in relationships. Faith in the fairness of life. This faith in fairness is similar to the "boomerang belief," that what you throw out to others will come back to you eventually in life. So if people are fair, honest or nurturing, they will eventually receive similar behavior aimed back at them. Having faith in fairness is an attitude that helps people be open to others and risk being vulnerable. They believe that the person who treats them negatively will eventually, get a negative favor in return, one that stings and hurts more.

Before allowing yourself to trust others you have to trust yourself.  I still don't trust myself, I still don't listen to my heart first. I don't trust that my opinions or my actions are correct. I question myself everyday, I question every action, every word and every step I take.

It's weird, I trust others before I trust myself.
Maybe that's why I usually get screwed.