Respect.

For some reason since I was in 5th grade I have always been judged, disliked or made fun of. Actually scratch that For some reason. I created this person ever since I was in 5th grade that has been judged, disliked or made fun of. No one else created this person, no one else shaped me into who I am today, nobody else told me how to portray myself. I put together this person. This person who was selfish, mean, bitchy, rude and judgmental. I don't regret being that person, I don't regret anything I ever did or said. Instead I learned from it. I learned that being mean or a bitch doesn't get you anywhere. It doesn't make you "cooler" or "more liked." Instead it made me look like a fool, someone who only cares about herself. I'm going to be honest. I haven't changed 100%. I still judge, I still make fun of, I still can be a bitch, but I have learned to not do those things so quickly. I have learned how much it hurts. I've walked in those shoes.

I want to be respected by everyone, but I always have to remind myself that not everybody is going to like me. Not everybody is going to respect me or want to be my friend. Everyone has different views and everyone has different opinions.

I used to be so good at making new friends. I'm not good at it anymore. I'm too scared to open up to people or trust people. I don't trust anyone anymore. I've been hurt so many times, I've had my heart pulled out of my chest and thrown onto the floor. It has been stepped on, thrown around and completely destroyed.  It's slowly being put back together, but its still not fully beating.

I've learned to not care about what other people think. I've realized that people are going to say things, people are going to WANT to purposely tear me down for their own enjoyment. I've realized people are going to judge me and not like me. There's nothing that I can do about that. There's nothing that I can do to change that. I've learned to let go of those people and just remember that there's people that like me for WHO I AM. If a person wants to completely tear me down, then that person isn't happy with themselves.

"Be Who You Are and Say What You Feel Because Those Who Mind Don't Matter and Those Who Matter Don't Mind.”